Category: Life & Suffering

Well, we finally got snow. Lots of it. We’ve already shoveled and yet, there is still more. I enjoy the different attitudes about snow. It’s either: ugh, I hate this, or yay! Snow! For me, I fall somewhere in the middle. I enjoy looking out my window and seeing white, not brown and muddy. I’m…

Last night was one of those nights. Sleep was fleeting and I had to put into practice what I have been writing. I needed to pray. I needed to let God take the worries and fears and replace them with his word. When I was in the hospital, all I could recall in stress was…

Last night, I missed out on going to my kids’ riding lesson. I weighed carefully whether I could manage this after a busy day and decided. It feels surreal to be here. I never thought I would be here. I could put on a brave face and tell you, I’m fine. It’s fine. Everything is…

One thing about writing daily that continues to amaze me are the patterns in my thinking. A picture that comes to mind is watching waves on the shore. They ebb and flow. they crash and recede. Over and over and over again. Sometimes the waves are incredibly strong. Sometimes the waves are small and quiet.…

The night watches are some of my least favorite times of day. I try to reason with myself to the truth. To the light, but I am accused, exhausted, and hurting. These are the times when I look back over my life and think of my mistakes. My sin. I am reminded over and over…

Do you ever wake up and just dread the day? Just want to roll over and go back to sleep. Wish it wasn’t today. Well, I’m fighting that today. I’m fighting in my spirit to remember why today is a good day. I found this daily affirmations video from Snoop Dogg. Check it out. I’m…

Yesterday, I had an appointment that i had been praying and longing for..in hopes of answers. In hopes of a solution. I have had to reason through this appointment and realize it is not what i hoped. This has happened before and I realize something. I am putting my hope in the wrong place. I’ve…

So, i am going to try something, i am going to write without looking at the words on the page too often. i cannot focus on the printed word for very long without secondary issues from my diagnosis hitting hard. 25 days ago, my life changed. I got to work with a migraine, something i…

Had a conversation this morning with my dear friend serving in Guam today. I walked away with some new thoughts on suffering, enduring, persevering, and trusting. We both came to the conversation with suffering. It looks different for both of us, but what do we do with suffering? Now before the Feast of the Passover,…

I really don’t know how to start today’s post. i keep writing and deleting and hoping i will figure it out. I realize that i hold my breath and struggle to find words when i need encouragement. When i need hope. I. I. I. I came out yesterday in tears because of pain and my…